Today I’m on my eighth day of serious journaling. It’s a private journal, but tonight I thought I’d share a portion of today’s brain dump (unedited):
So, I finally understood who I am.
This has helped me with my looks problem. Yeah, I believe I’ve been suffering from Body Dysmorphic Disorder for a while now. Now I accept how I look with no problem, I accept people looking at me and POTENTIALLY making jokes about my body. IT’S FINE. I’m just a soul in a body.
This may seem silly to some, but accepting your body is not an easy thing to do for a lot of us.
Fortunately, I know this body can be changed through hard work and dedication, which is what I KNOW I’m doing, so I’m fine. No need to worry, I can just focus on using this body to get me where I want to be in this life. In every aspect.
I’m writing this at 10:40 PM right now, I’m 10 mns past my bed time. I only did my morning routine and I fucked up my other ones because of work, I should have planned better.
I just figured a great way to remember that you’re a soul in this body:
I simply remember one of those biology pictures
and I associate the soul with the brain. I am literally my brain.
Every time I picture it, all my anxiety and negative thoughts are gone because it puts me back in place: into the soul, not the body.
Here’s another way to put it: Don’t just sense what the body senses, sense the body.
Okay, guess what? It’s now 12:17 AM and I’ve been doing some research before publishing this article. Turns out I just discovered my kind of 6th sense:
It’s called proprioception, which is basically body awareness. Look it up. Never knew this was something.